Getting over the fear of a spider

I had a very wonderful interaction with a spider this morning that taught me a lot so I couldn’t wait but to blog about it before it fades away. If you read some of my blogs before, I’ve established a relationship where they offered me protection. Today’s lesson was equally or even more amazing and loving.

I saw a spider about 2 inches wide on the wall. We have many spiders in and out of the house so I am not surprised to see it and I decided to talk with it. I was asking it about how it sees, what it eats, how it poops, how it can walk on glass, etc.

It told me it poops from its mouth! So I had to do a web search to see if I got it right. Well, I didn’t get it right but how cleaver the spider was by this message!!! I wouldn’t have jumped on to searching about spider if it didn’t tell me something weird like that. And if it was right, I’d have been amazed by my communication skills and left it that. Instead, it led me to study more of the spider’s anatomy and I was amazed how complex this little guy’s body is. It is so intricate and perfectly created for its needs!!

I went back to the spider and thanked it for having conversation with me. I also told it to hide because if my husband sees it, it will be killed… Typically, most of the spiders disappear after my warning them.

So I just went about my morning routine thinking it will be gone by the time I’m done. But this one persisted and it almost went 180 degree around our bedroom. So I asked why it is still hanging around…

I was told he was chosen to talk to me by the matriarch that has given me the protection before. It told me it didn’t particularly like that role, but had to do it. That made me crack up. 🙂 Non-human are so honest…

I’ve been asking universe to attract wild animals because if my heart is open, I thought they’d come. I think the universe sent me the spider instead… I think I know the reason why I get insects and reptiles more so than mammals but that’s an another story.

So I thanked the universe and asked spider if I could get closer and maybe he can crawl on top of my hand. Well, I used to scream with the sight of spider not too long ago so this is a challenge for me. I had to trust the universe’s sign and let it play out.

I thought, who made a decision that furry creatures are “cute” and they are to be handled and cuddled with while crawly crawl type creatures like spiders are to be “hated” and often times killed? That’s what human decided and is not coming from the place of love…

First attempt, it just didn’t want to have anything with me and hair on back of my neck was standing… Second attempt, it jumped down which made me be scared and my heart was almost beating out of my mouth (but not as much as I used to). It disappeared on our bed which made panic, but I found it on the pillow so I let it crawl back on the wall without touching it. I almost wanted to quit here but I persisted. Third attempt, it got on my hand and stayed there until I took it outside. It was moving on my alternating hands (left, right, and so on). When I got out, it stopped moving. So I sent my love and thanked it and asked if I should let him down. I sensed that he wanted this exercise done so I did. I put it out in the rain and thought maybe I shouldn’t have so asked it if it wanted to be moved somewhere else and offered my finger. It was DONE and didn’t want to have anything with me anymore. So I thanked it and I’m writing this blog before this magical moment goes away…

The lesson I learned from this is that I really need to respect ALL living things, not just mammals. They are all equally amazing creatures. This includes plants, too!

Will I be this extreme person who never kills anything? I certainly do not believe that I will. For example, if a tick is crawling on my girl (dog), I’m more likely to terminate it because of love for my dog, not because I am out to kill ticks. However I will try to be conscious about the decision to or not to kill living creatures and be able to stand by the reason behind the decision to do so.